A large problem I am having right now is the not believeing anything they say and 1/2 of what they do. She is still kind and caring to me. Still shows emotion over the situation. Told me again that if I was the way I am now and have been for the last month, been like this years ago none of this would have ever been a problem. She still wants to know I got somewhere safe and says drive safe when I go somewhere. She brought up me going out on Friday. She said when she saw me ready and headed out she thought I was going on a date. While she said it she was very figity and nervous like she was really uncomfortable with the thought and making awkward jokes and nervously laughing.
Yesterday when she was packing, when I would leave to go do something she would follow me around. Especially to my room and just try to chit chat. It's making it really tough to see her like this and not slide back. I also took a big step for me today. Part of letting go. It may sound silly to some, but I unfriended her on fb. I saw she changed her name back to her maiden name and it bothered me a lot. It got me thinking tho. I have been terrified to look on there because of anything she might post. And I do want to be friends with her in my life but not because she doesn't want to be my wife anymore. Because that's the only option I have.
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
