What do I want...tough question. I want my old H back, I want a better marriage. The last several years have been hard and I only really noticed it after he left. He would ask if I was happy and I would say yes, but I don't think I really was. Over the last several years I've pretty much been all consumed with the kids. I forgot about who I was as a person and just became the kids mom. I work full time, so I felt like when I was home I should be with them. I lost touch with so many friends and stopped doing a lot of things I used to enjoy. Recently I started walking with a group of ladies in my neighborhood. I have also started reaching out to some friends I lost touch with over the years. My H has always had a lot of friends (many of them single) so he can go out all the time. Most of my friends are married with kids, so our schedules just don't line up. I know I need to get out and make some new friends, but I'm still struggling so much with self confidence, that it is difficult. My IC keeps telling me I just need to do it. My resolution for 2016 is to do just that.
Hey, mm! Welcome to the wonderful, life saving, supportive DB boards. Sorry you have to find yourself here, but it is a safe place that will help you enormously through this tough time.
Your post looks just like my posts on my thread. It looks like you have a great start on GAL already and are searching for a way to find yourself again. That's at least 1/2 the battle!
Self confidence will come as you do more on your own...as you overcome each tiny (or great) challenge, like meeting new people.
Don't worry about the possible OW (easier said than done, I know), she is not your concern right now. Focus on you. You will hear this a lot, but it is true.
Keep reading, posting and learning. It will help.
M-51 H-54 2D-27 and 25 M-26 yrs Bombshell and IHS 7-29-15 He moved out 10-3-15 D filed 1-27-16 D final 10-27-16
