Meeting W tomorrow for the final resolution of our accounts. After that there will be no regular reasons for meeting. Since I got back from her parents last Wednesday I've avoided both chances to see her. Indirectly I know some of what she's being doing but I don't ask. As I gave her some English TV ( against family and friend's advice) to watch I received a couple of texts so thanks and how much she enjoyed it. I replied you are welcome and left it at that. Although I'd love to meet her, chat etc I know that would make her happy and let her cake eat with me as her best friend. Feel a bit sad and lonely at the moment knowing that after tomorrow the NC and detaching will be even more final. There are no reasons to meet socially anymore. When we met up she always wants to talk as if nothing has changed ( we avoid OM and R talks) and I know if I let her into my life she'd be happy to be best friends. I know I have to focus on me and GAL etc.it can be hard to do when also I have to spend time looking after a 15yr old and all their dramas and mood swings. Tomorrow I'm going to try to meet with an informal group of runners. I know I have to let her lead her life, I can't pursue or persuade. If she decides to change her life it will be her decision not mine and then we'll see. It feels like one step more away from someone I still love and miss.
