I am right there with you Dday, except this time I stopped caring, lol. I had a lot of "stops and starts" with detaching and dropping the rope, but this time I think I've really got it. I like that H is noticing me more, but honestly, I perceive it and file it under "interesting" but not under "woo hoo! he just talked to me!" like I would have a month ago.
I have come to the point where I realize that it is going to take a LOT more than a hug, a nice conversation, a day without spew, to reconcile this marriage, and although I notice those things and appreciate them, those are not enough to get me excited any more. I am realizing that the "little things" are nice but they are little things and not enough to rock my boat. As much as I realize that the crappy things aren't going to send me into a downward spiral either. I am aware of it all, taking it all in, probably watching too closely still. But not letting these things set up shop in my head.
It is hard. You will get there. I might get derailed, and you will have to talk me back to sense again. Its a journey, thank God for DB friends to help us along. In the meantime, I am sure you looked cute in your sweater! Hope your team won!
