Today was a tough day. I feel like I make progress, then take two steps back. The holidays I know are tough for many and they seemed especially hard for me this year. During this holiday my H told me he was "dating" someone. He said he wasn't sure what to call it but he would go out with a bunch of "friends" and there was one girl in particular he would talk with. It hit me very hard. I always feared this time could come, but was secretly hoping he would come to his senses and come home before it ever happened. I feel like I've always been pretty independent and self confident, but I just feel so low right now. I feel like I don't know this man at all. This "girl" as he calls her is likely from a group of friends that his divorced buddy hangs out with. I'm guessing she is 10+ yrs his junior. I know I shouldn't, but I'm still stuck wondering what she has that I don't.
M: Early 40s H: late 30s 2 kids under 10 M: 15 yrs BD: 7/14 S: 10/14
