Mona - my dear, you asked for a 2x4. I'm not going to give you one. Why? You've already identified the problem. You don't need it pointed out to you, and you don't need someone to say, "bad, Mona!" You've already done that. If you need someone to back you up and say, "Mona, I'm really proud of you. You spotted a potential problem before it became a reality, and you know what you need to do to avoid it. I have complete faith in your ability to handle it on your own" - well, I'm your girl!
It sounds like you were hot, hot, hot this weekend. I love it! Good for you. Once again you've fired up my determination to do what I need to do in order to have some healthy self-esteem again. I know I'm a good person. I just know I could look a lot better - but the good news is, I know how to achieve that, and I'm willing to do it. I'd like my outside to radiate what is on the inside - in some aspects, I do that, but I'd love to look in the mirror, and say, "Damn! You look great." It's been a while...I'm going to get there again.
I am so thankful that you rejoined this board, even while I'm sorry that you had to. You've been such a bright spot in my life, and you are a fine example to the rest of us as to what we should be doing. You've also got tons of experience to share from your last time being here - all of which I am so very thankful for. It would be a sad, sad day for me if you were to stop participating here, and I know others feel that way, too.
Resign yourself to posting regularly...lol You're needed here.