Thank you for your kind support dear Ancaire. I agree with your assessment of my current situation. I am okay. I will be back to my optimistic attitude soon. I working through it. Each setback is easier to adjust to and rebound from.
NYGal your hope is powerful. It did the trick, I am at peace with acceptance and understanding. I realized I was grasping and allow my ego to run wild. I am in balance once again. Not happy with the current state of affairs but accepting it.
Dday, I'm back on the diet. I am now only eating life not the other way around.