Mutatio, I may not know the whole story, but it sounds like maybe you're being a little hard on yourself tonight? It is a roller coaster of emotions, and I find that sometimes I assume worst case scenario and then it's not so bad. You're allowed to have an evening of no hope. Maybe tomorrow will be better. Maybe in the morning you cook breakfast for the kids and W, and make it a fun time?
11/4/15 W revealed EA/2 months later became PA with co-worker Reconciling since late April 2016 Don't give up until it's time, then move on Be patient, strong and kind but never a doormat