My hope is dissipating. I am left with an empty feeling. With this empty feeling I do not see how this marriage can be repaired. If this is how my wife feels how could she ever change her mind. There is nothing there.
We ate dinner together tonight, first time this week. I was quiet the whole meal. Towards the end my wife starts telling a story about work. I just sit there and listened, my kids commented, I couldn't. There was nothing there.
I thought when this marriage failed I would be going down fighting. Now I am not so sure, I feel dead inside. I always had hope she might come around and try one more time and because of my work on myself she would want to stay married. Now, I just do not see how that happens. I have been such a fool waiting for this woman to come around.
