I did have a good time last night, thank you all. The focus was off of me, I listened to my gf's problems. Two of the girls are sisters, with three other sisters in their family and what this family goes through is unbelievable...there's ALWAYS something going on.

Three friends were there. #1 told of her daughter trying to sneak her boyfriend in through the bedroom window the other night. The booze she found in her daughter's bedroom.

#2 told of her son, senior in high schools, whose GF senior in high school was pregnant...last I had heard they were having the child...well it had all changed and the girl decided she didn't want to go through with the prengnacy..and the whole story spilled from #2, #2 trying to talk the girl out of terminating the pregnancy and the emotional pain and drama of the whole sitch..it was gut wrenching to listen to.

#3 she didn't have a whole lot to say and usually she's the one we all have to listen to.

Thus the reason we included #2 in our little group as she never shuts up and she always has something going on worth listening too.

I didn't say a lot, was asked if H was at home, if OW was out of the picture, I siad I don't know, I don't ask. I could see #3 shaking her head Oh well.

H is at his appointment, he stayed with S last night while I was out. Went to bed. I said good night to H, he's didn't respond. Got S ready to go to day care this morning, came in and said good bye to H, H did say goodbye. Asked H to call me after his appt.

So by leaving H alone, H won't think that I don't care about him? I do do little caring things for H. I put notes/cards in his lunch letting him know I care. We haven't in awhile.

I don't want to back off too much as then won't H think I don't care about him? I make sure S is fed, make sure he is taken care, even try to keep him out of H's way. Offer to take S to SIL, parents so that H can be alone. I am being considerate and thoughtful. I have been carrying the burden and I really don't mind doing all that I have to do either. Also, trying to do things for myself. H does like having S around it is H's bright spot.

I'm in a funk right now, part of it is the weather, it's gloomy, I will be okay and so will S. Don't know if I can put a finger on my mood, just know I haven't felt this way in a long time.

Cathy