What age did this happen Mutatio? My father was a tyrant and verbally was abusive to my mother all of my childhood. He struck her when I was about 10.
Do you see this has seriously influenced you? I think it has in a few ways. I realize I picked up some of his bad habits, they surfaced when I worked for my FIL.
What is it that stops you healing and forgiving yourself? I am not sure, I felt so guilty about my behavior. I am beginning to accept it now. I am beginning to be at peace with it. I guess I was so worried about losing my wife that I got hung up on my part in the marriages problems. My anxiety about my marriage caused me to beat myself up. My father was a blamer, I guess I was blaming myself.
