It's Saturday night, I'm sitting alone in the kitchen wanting so much to walk over to my wife and give her a big hug and kiss. She looks so great as usual. Fortunately I have learned enough from DR and this forum not to act on such impulses. I am so lonely. No one to talk to, no one to go out with. It's one of the few days that I haven't had to attend one of my boy's hockey games.
I left the house early this morning to go to the gym. Didn't tell wife where I was going. She does not know about the gym membership.
Not sure why, but I even looked into a dating website for single parents. I don't want to give up on our marriage but maybe I just want to see what's out there. I looked quickly but unsubscribed within minutes.
I'm in a fog today. It's so hard. I sometimes think my wife is a DBer and we are both practicing the same rules and following the same guidance on this website.
I know this journey is not going to be easy. No magic spell will help. I am afraid that no matter how well I follow the DB steps, my wife will never want to try to piece the married back together.
My last few posts I was looking for some guidance and have had no reply. I hope there is a reply soon.
Don't count the days, make the days count. Mohammad Ali
