Ancaire, buried doesn't mean it's gone, it just means it's festering. Festering means it is underneath everything and lurking behind everything you do. Honey I wish I could say there's an easier way but the truth is, if you want a shortcut, ya gotta power straight into the jaws of hell. That's the only sure way to come out the other side. I know it's scary. I know it kicks up your deepest wounding. That's why IC is important in tandem. Go to alanon. Listen to the stories. Gravitate towards the older gals who have been working a program in there for 25-30 years. There's a ton of wisdom and serenity to be found by walking through the fire. You can do this. You deserve a better hand than you've been dealt. You've survived a lot in your life, from what little you've shared. I believe you can do this. Post often so we know how you're doing.
xoxoxo P.S. believe it or not, dealing with it head on is actually easier than all the gyrations we go through avoiding it ...
M 20+ T25+ S ~15.5 (BD) BD 4/6/15 D 12/23/16
"Someone I loved once gave me A box full of darkness. It took me years to understand, That this too, was a gift." ~ Mary Oliver
