Feeling Numb

[Elly4]

Thank you all. I will talk more later when I have the time, but I am logging on here to get the strength. I have followed advice and have a full day of GAL. I would prefer to crawl into bed for the day...but that leads no where. You are all correct. This is the beginning of a new chapter for me. It wasn't the one I wanted, but it is mine. Onto the new E.

[Imlucky]

I've lived through it too. I had to help my W pack the moving truck since everyone else flaked on her. She called me her champion, and then drove away forever.

Thats what happened to me. No one else turned up and all had excuses. After i returned the truck she was telling me she could always count on me to have her back

Its good to know i wasnt the only one this happended too

[PigPen]

Thank you all. I will talk more later when I have the time, but I am logging on here to get the strength. I have followed advice and have a full day of GAL. I would prefer to crawl into bed for the day...but that leads no where. You are all correct. This is the beginning of a new chapter for me. It wasn't the one I wanted, but it is mine. Onto the new E.

Tonight E, you will have survived the day after your H left. Tomorrow you will have survived the day after the day after your H left. Next week you'll be that much further.

IT DOES GET BETTER. It really does. And you know what? Some day are meant for staying in bed feeling like hell. It's ok to do that. Your healing is your healing.

Sending you so much love and strength.

PP

[PigPen]

I've lived through it too. I had to help my W pack the moving truck since everyone else flaked on her. She called me her champion, and then drove away forever.

Thats what happened to me. No one else turned up and all had excuses. After i returned the truck she was telling me she could always count on me to have her back

Its good to know i wasnt the only one this happended too

Oh yea, was a glorious day. The beauty of this site and seeing BD dates and hearing stories is you realize how often the worst day of your life is also someone else's. It helps a bit.

I'm sorry you went through it to. We're both going to be champions and back havers to someone else, someone who will appreciate who they've got.

PP

[Imlucky]

Elly

Its going to be hard to adjust to an empty house. I found putting away all those things that reminded me of her away in a cupboard. I stopped reading and looking at all the cards and photos i kept as it would start me crying again remembering all the good stuff.
I also decluttered my stuff, got rid of all those all clothes that didnt fit,books i dont read anymore. I felt less stressed walking into a clean and tidy house.

At the moment it just needs to be about you and your wellbeing.
Take care
Brad

[Elly4]

Azzork, Mu, Cherry, BT, PP, Zephyr, and Imlucky, thank you for your kind words and support today and yesterday. I have been so busy today that I only had a chance to cry twice. Once when my son announced to the room that something sad had happened and it was that his daddy didn't want to live with him anymore and then when I left him at his dad's for the night.

I had a good time doing agility with my pup and did some retail shopping afterwards.

It's weird to figure out that no one is waiting for me to come home anymore. I'm not sure I like the feeling.

If all of you amazing people can do this...so can I.

PP, I should have been on here all along instead of isolating myself.

E

Oh yea, I acted completely "As If" when I dropped off my son. Things were great and I was glad that our S was going to have a great time with Dad.

[Elly4]

So, the first night without my S went. I had a really hard time getting out of bed this morning. But I made myself and am now going to take them to their Sunday morning social.

See my guy tonight for one night. I'm sure he's having fun with his Dad. Even with everything else, he's a good man and a good dad.

Boy am I tired though.

E

[V2pt0]

Hang in there, Elly. I am glad that you survived your first night without, S. I know it is so hard right now, but you are doing it.

So, now is the time that you can really start focusing on E. Can you go do something nice for yourself this afternoon like go get a massage? What other stuff do you have on you GAL calendar for the next week. I found that I really needed to preplan or else nothing would happen. Each week, I would love to start seeing more about your goals and the fun things you are doing. That is such a big part of this process and moving forward with your life.

You can do this!!

[Elly4]

Hi BT! Hmm...I haven't made goals for this phase of my life. I did when he was still here, but...you're right. I'll work on those.

Today, the doggie social is for several hours. First my old girl is a den mom to a puppy play group and then my young girl will play with the teenage pups.

Come home for a few and then headed out for the annual meeting of my agility club. So my day is packed and in a useful way.

No massage though. I will try to get my goals up by Monday night. Thanks for the push. I need those or I do slide into just surviving. ***hugs to you***

Thank you all...again. I so appreciate you all.

E

[Elly4]

Had a great time at the annual meeting. People were congratulating me on running the club so well despite my year. It was hard to hear as I don't normally like attention on me, but I accepted it with a simple thank you, which in the past I would have just blushed and walked away.

Son had a much harder time saying goodbye to dad tonight. Anyone have suggestions to help with this transition? He just kept asking dad to stay in the house and not leave. What do I say? Do?

E