Back to square one, not sure I can do this again!

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Well, H did go to actually go to Dr appt today. Hopefully it went well and he got the help he needed. I do realize that even if he got on an antidepressant or whatever, he won't see any results for weeks....then, he will still have his MLC to deal with, not to mention that there's no guarantee that he will want to be with me when it's all said and done. Still, I do love him and want him to feel better and not be in such turmoil. I hope this will help bring him out of his depression, anxiety, and panic attacks, etc so he can think more clearly and make better decisions. And, no, I haven't broken my no contact with him. Today starts day number three. Been trying to stay busy and not think about him which seems to be as easy as ignoring an elephant sitting in the middle of the living room in my apartment. Stil using the "fake it till you make it" approach and hoping it will begin to get easier soon.