Oh E, my whole heart goes out to you. This is just pure chit. Chit on a chingle. And you've just been giving a heaping plate full of it.
If there's any solace to be taken from knowing that there are people who genuinely feel your pain, have been there ourselves, and are silently holding you in our hearts and thought, please take it.
I've lived through it too. I had to help my W pack the moving truck since everyone else flaked on her. She called me her champion, and then drove away forever. It's like getting hit by a truck but knowing you're going to be numb for a while until the pain sets in.
This has been a long road for you, a long hard road. Believe in the fact that on the other side of today is some slight aspect of closure. You don't have to feel his presence in your home, you get to have your own space to be you, and you get to begin some of the healing process. You may not feel it just yet, but after the release of today's pain, it does get better. It's odd that way.
I'm personally so glad you're back on the board and back posting, please post more often than you want to and use all of us however you need.
Sending you love, and as many hugs as you need tonight E.
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M 39 W 36 T5 M3 BD - 1/15 Separated - Same Day Served 9/15 D finalized 6/17
