WW, My Addiction, Patience is HARD

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My interactions with WW tonight were strange - to be expected.

She did find me in the basement - she worked late.

She expected me to be 'treat her like a human being'... I was using yes and no answers. I guess too cold for her liking.

I'm not trying to punish her. I did ask what are her expectations for the next weeks - and should I get anything in the mail from the D filing? She said she's stopped all the paperwork getting to me, but the motion was filed, so she has 60 days to serve me.

I think she was expecting me to jump up and down, and do a little WW worship. Instead, I've been indifferent to her gracious act of not serving me. I did ask if she had plans to be away in March - she does, with our D14 for a anime conference. I think that's when OM and her were going to meet. I mentioned if she had gotten a room - she has.

She's not over OM - no way. Ugh. She's going to have expectations that we're all 'back to normal'. Sooo far from normal now. She's beginning to get that. She has lots of personal growth ahead of her - and she doesn't know just how much. It's concerning her how I could be just fine beginning the D clock again. I want to save my marriage, but not in it's current form. I'm not trying to roadblock the recover effort, but I just don't trust anything she's saying - yet. Trust starts somewhere, but just 48 hours ago she was gung-ho, full speed ahead on the D, and now she's crying and unsure about everything.

Did something happen with OM? Did someone finally break thru? I guess that's conversations well down the road.

I mentioned I might be headed out by myself for a few days coming up. She seems concerned. I don't care.

Looking for advice from Sandi, or from anyone who has seen a last minute reconsideration by a WH/WW. Can I trust anything? Heck, it wouldn't surprise me to see her tell me tomorrow that she's calling first thing and having me served.

Thoughts from anyone would be appreciated. Glad I wasn't served, but getting put back in a holding pattern, with no clear goals from WW on what she wants isn't my idea of a good time.