2016 Baby! We're going to be ok.

[SciDad]

Responding here because I'd already started too :-p

Riding a bike? I sure hope so! Although, since I'm barely 5 months in, I have a feeling I'm in for a really, really long wait. I'm worrying about my girly bits....hopefully, they don't wake up and start driving me nuts. (Is that TMI?)

This is treading dangerously close to tmi, but there are things you can do by yourself to alleviate such pressure...

I've resolved to go NC, work on me, let him go...but even though I know it to be the best path to take?

For now, I think it is. Heal yourself. Focus on your needs, the ones that don't need your h. My worry is that if you initiate contact too quickly, it will drag YOU down. I don't care what it does to him right now. I worry for you.

I'm lonely. I need to be really careful about making sure I don't wind up in any circumstances that don't give me cause for regret later.

This is hard work.

Idle hands, Ancaire, idle hands. Find something to keep yourself busy first, then branch out to things you can do socially. I feel incredibly vulnerable right now, and I'm guessing you do, too. Tread carefully, but with confidence. You are doing great! No need to jeopardize our progress by bringing new people into the relationship