He left a day early. So this morning was the last morning I'll wish him a good day face to face. Maudlin and probably catastrophizing (sp), but it's how I'm feeling this morning. Hopefully work will get me in a better space.
E
M 46 / H 43 T 24/M 18 S 4 11/6/2014 ILYBNILWY 1/16/2015 Living in separate bedroom 1/8/2016 H moved out
He left a day early. So this morning was the last morning I'll wish him a good day face to face. Maudlin and probably catastrophizing (sp), but it's how I'm feeling this morning. Hopefully work will get me in a better space.
E
I remember that morning and night before XW and I separated so clearly. It was so weird knowing that that was going to be the last night we ever slept under he same roof. She actually came and slept in the bed with me for the first time in a month (something about her back hurting?). I remember coming back in after getting my kids in the car to give her one "last kiss".
It was an incredibly painful experience. But, I got through it. And came out better on the other side.
E I'm so sorry to read this, I'm sending absolute huge hugs to you. In a way, this might help you to work on you. Without him there you aren't going to feel like you're walking on egg shells. Please please check in with us for support. We are all here for you, and sending love and hugs. Now is when his journey begins and he will see what a fool he is being. Love to your s, just hold your precious bundle that bit tighter today
Me 26 H 25 M 4 T 5 Baby born 4/14 BD: 1/15 EA: 2/15 PA: 4/15 reconciling: 4/15 ILYBINILWY- 11/15 ILY-1/16 ILYBNILWY 4/16 ILY 6/16 ILYBINILWY 6/16 Baby due 3/17 BD 8/16
Elly, there no words I can say that will make this less painful. Please know you are loved and this was not your fault. You did not do this. We love you Elly, we love you. Please lean on us when your in need.
Oh E, my whole heart goes out to you. This is just pure chit. Chit on a chingle. And you've just been giving a heaping plate full of it.
If there's any solace to be taken from knowing that there are people who genuinely feel your pain, have been there ourselves, and are silently holding you in our hearts and thought, please take it.
I've lived through it too. I had to help my W pack the moving truck since everyone else flaked on her. She called me her champion, and then drove away forever. It's like getting hit by a truck but knowing you're going to be numb for a while until the pain sets in.
This has been a long road for you, a long hard road. Believe in the fact that on the other side of today is some slight aspect of closure. You don't have to feel his presence in your home, you get to have your own space to be you, and you get to begin some of the healing process. You may not feel it just yet, but after the release of today's pain, it does get better. It's odd that way.
I'm personally so glad you're back on the board and back posting, please post more often than you want to and use all of us however you need.
Sending you love, and as many hugs as you need tonight E.
PP
M 39 W 36 T5 M3 BD - 1/15 Separated - Same Day Served 9/15 D finalized 6/17
E, so sorry that everything is so painful, but please know that this stage will get better too. My house felt so empty at first too when H moved out, especially coming home from business trips. I just slowly started to do things to make the house feel more warm and mine. I changed around furniture, added scented candles, bought a few new accessories, etc.
Today, I appeciate having space to myself, I can do whatever I want, and I am way more attached. Also, this now gives you H the pace to actually have feelings of missing you. And he will. You doing such an amazing job with all of this.
Big hug. BT
Me: 42 H: 40 M: 12 H moved out - 8/2015 I filed - 8/2015
