Wow Cali ...
So remember when I said that moment would be crystal clear, when you knew it was over. I get the feeling that this is NOT that moment. I get the feeling that this is the drop the rope/wake the hell up and smell the java moment for your W though. I guess what I mean is (and please don't take this the wrong way) Congratulations. The waiting is over. YOu've hit a point that I long to get to: one where you KNOW no matter what you will be ok with or without this relationship and have not closed the door to whatever else or whomever else might be in your future. From what I've read about this process, this is where the rubber meets the road.

I sense you might have a bit of relief to be at this point, of course tinged with other emotions I'm sure. Cali, you have done so much for this relationship. You are so spot on that you deserve more, much much more.

Continuing to send you good thoughts and prayers {{hugs}}xoxoxo

M 20+ T25+
S ~15.5 (BD)
BD 4/6/15
D 12/23/16

"Someone I loved once gave me
A box full of darkness.
It took me years to understand,
That this too, was a gift."
~ Mary Oliver