Where I am...

[mahhhty]

Alright... I've waited on this since yesterday. Thought about it but done nothing with it.

Yesterday AM. I drop the kids off for Daycare. X's Mom goes on to explain how X is now dialyzing (on dialysis for kidneys). She explains how kidney function is 3%, and if she doesn't she won't even be alive come her surgery which is in early March. This all just hit me. Especially, how I was emailing back and forth with her the day before. And she was chatty and I was short.

Then this AM. I said this to my D & S at breakfast. "Check these out [showing pictures of me kayaking to the kids]. I got these from a friend." D says something like "Mommy has a friend she introduced me to him." I asked follow-up questions... When was this? What was his name? She couldn't answer them. She didn't even remember his name. So I didn't press her. I don't want them to feel like they are in the middle (I'm super sensitive to this. I don't talk about X at all in front of the kids).

I'm unsure how to deal with either situation...

- I am compassionate/empathetic about her situation (w/kidneys) with myself or her parents. However, in email/text conversions (our only conversion) with her. My goal is to end it as quickly as possible.