You are right, Cadet. The road is definitely smooth and bumpy, but to me, absolutely worth it. I'm glad we continue to work through our bumps. The thing that worries we, is we have a different vision of if we get to the point of me moving there, how it's going to look, and I just can't do it the way he sees it on on this one, because of D8. So sometimes I just wonder if I am delaying the inevitable. Only time will tell how it will go if we get to that point/
I'll be fine. Devastated for a little while if it doesn't work out, but somehow I am always fine. This has been quite a journey on being true to myself, my feelings, my wants and needs. I used to bend to accommodate the guys I have dated. Pretending I don't have certain needs or that I am ok with certain circumstances, even when I am not for fear of losing them. i.e: my ex. While I do put a lot of effort and compromise in, I do realize I need the same in return. I cannot hold a relationship together on my own. I tried that with my ex and it failed horribly.
Everything is a learning and growing experience, for sure.
