I just had an Ah Haaaa!!! moment... I turn him down, tell him another night, then make an excuse the next night not realizing he's been living for this night to come... pissed off H!!! Ugh, if I were him I'd be a lot more unhappy!!! Ok, this is my usual pattern... I've got to change it obviously. But it's back to the whole desire vs. no desire thing. And I really love my H... so what is wrong with me??? Where did my desire go??? Put an APB out: "One healthy hunk of desire missing... reward to anyone who has any information"!!!
Ya know, I have read so many posts about HD people just not 'getting' LD people, and I'm inclined to agree, but for a different reason. I just don't get why it leaves!
Ugh, if I were him I'd be a lot more unhappy!!! Ok, this is my usual pattern... I've got to change it obviously. But it's back to the whole desire vs. no desire thing. And I really love my H... so what is wrong with me??? Where did my desire go??? Put an APB out: "One healthy hunk of desire missing... reward to anyone who has any information"!!! 
