Just to add that depending where you are, there may be laws that gives you the right for alimony just because you can prove you have been living together for X years.
Check that with a lawyer sweetie, it's for your own good. You may not need a D decree to have those rights, it's just the law to protect people that are not married legally but are in a solid long term R.
Information is money, so get that going, get informed.
And Rain, Pink is not that strong, I struggle a lot, now I cry sometimes, but I used to cry all the time. I don't think that anyone that comes to this board is not hurting badly.
And I still need to work on a lot of stuff. It's only now that I feel letting go.
I guess you get to a point of no more hope sometimes. Some folks here did reconcile, but some don't, and I feel now that in my situation there is not much to fight for anymore.
But that is now, after 17 months of many mistakes, a lot of pain and tears, that I am letting go. It takes time to adjust.
I think that your situation has a lot of hope, you just need to keep working hard.
