Jpeg, we are all different yet all the same. You will get there in good time. Your not ready yet. I am in a similar situation as you. It is very difficult at times.
I am setting myself up to begin detaching. I noticed something about my thinking, new this week. I am tired of this. I sit and worry, worry till I make myself sick and for what good? I did not see it coming, I just feel like worrying is a waste of time. I worried for a year and look what it got me. Be well Jpeg