No Contact think it just drives H farther away

[Imlucky]

I don't think I'm stronger I think I'm getting caught up with the I don't know what I want and coming over for a period then going no contact. Last time it threw me right back to analysing everything that my counsellor was telling me I'm doing it to myself

My w knows I'm open to working on issues and I believed we could sort them and be better. It's hard when the history is rewritten and there is constant negativity

I don't believe things will be better on going our own way but I'm not going to beg or pleas anymore. I did all that the start and I reckon everyone is does it. I did struggling at Christmas missing all the stuff we used to do & the traditions

I'm going to honour my marraige vows until the end and remain loyal & faithful. After that I don't know but the time now is being used on me and learning about boundaries that look after my well being