I am not worried that I will mess up badly. I care less and less each day about how he feels. But I still want to do my best.
This is how I'm feeling the longer it goes. I made mistakes know that I wanted us to get better and help. I reading DR now even if it only helps me be better and prepared for next time. I got IC and worked on my insecurities and can see how neediness is unattractive I carried a lot of guilt and let her blame weigh me down I think if I keep at my 180s and reading that I may outgrow her and she will still be suck in anger resentment and blame I've stopped trying to fix everything it's not my burden to carry anymore
