Your story has really touched me. You do not deserve any of this. I couldn't even imagine having raised 5 kids with a man and then watch him change so suddenly - wow that must have been so shattering.
I am a little confused as to why you are the one that needs to leave the family home?
From your writings it seems clear that the car incident was very out of character. Honestly even though I never did something like that to my ex, I can imagine doing something that crazy at the time of the bomb had been on medication or something. At the time he left there is a 4 month period I can bearly remember anything. I lost 25 lbs in 2 months. A friend had to tell me to start eating ice cream I looked so sickly.
Tina Fey says something like "Crazy is what men call woman they no longer what to sleep with"
I strongly strongly suggest Alanon. As much as these boards help me when I was at home and at night, Alanon led me to create a new network of friends in my community. Alanon is not just for those people effected by Alcohol some people also go because they have been effected by mental illness. Anyone can go to Alanon and you will be welcome. I think Alanon would be particularly good for you because you are concerned about your reputation because of the incident. I think Alanon would help you put that in perspective.
What your H is doing to you and your family is beyond awful. Continue to listen to your L advice and protect yourself financially. If you do the work on yourself in a few years you will be so far ahead of him you will want to have nothing to do with him.
---- M 39 H 35 D5,D4 M 4 T 9 ILYBNILWY 5/18/11 Left 7/11/11 Divorced 12/1/13
