Earlier today I was typing a letter to my wife, (one that I will never send her) just to see my true feelings on paper.
As I was typing and looking back at why my w and I are in the sitch, I realized how difficult it must have been to stay married to me for so long. I always thought I was such a good husband, but reflecting on my actions during our marriage, I can understand why we are where we are. I am surprised she didn't drop the bomb sooner. I am so sickened by my actions. I can't believe how irresponsible and selfish my actions of the past were.
Yes, we lacked communication during our marriage, but holy crap, my actions are indefensible. I only hope I get the chance to rectify.
Wow. I am so glad I decided to type the letter. Thankfully I know I will be a better person, a better me, going forward. Hopefully she will notice and if she doesn't, I will still be the best me I can be.
Don't count the days, make the days count. Mohammad Ali
