Adventures of PP, Woofie, and the WAW (10)

[PigPen]

Hi Mona and E! Thank you both for your kind words and guidance, I'm even more grateful today for this board than ever. Love you all!

In about 3 weeks I leave my home and community for a year so I'm a bit on edge and dealing with goodbyes and the reality of such a big decision. Many mixed feelings. As my WAW has told me she wants the D all wrapped up before I leave, I also know that in addition to passing Woofie off to her, I'll have to sign papers and make all of this as official as it can be.

Last night I got a call from my STBXW and I knew it was time. Time to plan the last meeting with the paperwork. I had put it in my mind that finalizing the D was no more to her than an item to cross off of her to do list. Being that I had gotten all overly emotional over getting a goodbye hug from my dentist and all of his staff earlier in the day, I let the call go to VM. I have a rule of not taking calls or listening to VM's with the potential to upset me if it's past 5pm as it messes with my sleep.

This morning I listened to the message and truthfully DB'ers, braced myself even though I had told myself it was coming, on some level I'm looking forward to moving on and someday finding an R with a woman who thinks I'm worth fighting for, as well as knowing that I don't want to carry my M on my trip with me.

For the second time in a row my STBXW said she just called to check on Woofie, to ask how my first week of the year had gone and to "holla" at me. Somehow the brilliant, spiritually steeped woman I fell in love with leaves me VM's now like an urban youth.

I haven't called back and am not sure I will as the cost to me is still seemingly higher than the cost is to her when we talk. I also feel like I'm now firmly in the BFF role and don't want to be there. Truly I'm not sure how to respond other than to shoot her a TM back saying that Woofie is grand, and I'm busy as can be.

Any thoughts? This whole dropping the rope thing sure does seem to be working. Two phone calls in two weeks from her.

PP