Hey Sandi I took your advice. I do realize that I have a problem with conflict and fighting fairly. Growing up fighting was a pretty frequent even at my house and my mother is just the type to say things as mean as possible to just get a response. This is something I no doubt need to work on with myself. I have scheduled an appointment to speak with someone about that issue that my wife and I used to go to MC for a brief time in the past and knows our history.
I need to address the way I am in this area, if not for my marriage, but for how I deal with anger as a person. I appreciate the suggestion. With being so caught up in this situation I lost sight of the "not so fun things" that I should also be doing to better myself. I cannot control whether or not my wife has a change of heart and wants to work together again, but I can make sure that no matter what I handle that issue.
Me: 33 W: 32 Married: 4/2007 Trial Sep: 12/5/2015 S:5 y/o S:3 y/o EA w/OM#1 confirmed and ended: 6/12/14 EA w/OM#2 Confirmed 1/7/2016 still continues