G8r. It took a lot for me to get over spying. Think to yourself is knowing what she is doing going to make you feel better or worse. It used to kill me wanting to know what she was doing and when I found things it hurt much worse than not knowing. It takes self control and a lot of it. Remember have no expectations of r or S. Keep focusing on what makes you happy. Slowly things will be less about her and more about you and your child. Your doing great from what I see and there will be set backs. How they affect you is what you can control
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
