Thanks for checking in grl. Tl2, most days I don't feel like much of an inspiration. But the last 48 hours have been pretty good. I feel lighter and have been laughing and joking more. Getting kinda excited about designing and building. Looking at vehicles. I still don't have much money, but a house payment will be half of rent. So that will help immensely.
Saw XW twice last night. Picked up boys after work and she and I chatted for 10 minutes. I had good PMA, and I didn't have to try. Felt very comfortable talking to her. I hurt my hand at work, and it looks a lot worse than it is, but she became pretty concerned and ran into the house to get me some cream stuff we used on S7. It was nice to see that she still cares.
Dropped boys back off (had to work early today) and talked some more, both of us standing outside shivering in our pjs. Again, I was very comfortable talking to her, and I must be getting used to this. When I left, I had the beginning feelings of the pain of losing her, but it passed very quickly. I think it's great that we can talk this easily, and I think it will go a long way for R if that ever is on the table. But, she still made a comment that proves her neglect for my feelings is still there. That may take a while, I guess. I'm sure she didn't even realize...
Thats all for now. Hope all is well in DB land
35 3 boys Not my circus, not my monkeys anymore....
