New Year..Need new goals

[Rain75]

Hey Pink....well if he is temp checking then I just blew it AGAIN! What is wrong with me? Why can't I detach?

Btw when I can't control the tears I shower, step outside or tell them mommys head hurts. I've been doing better before today.

He text me asking me to call him. But since I was nervous about his text and still sad, I waited a while to call. Well I guess he wanted me to call while whoever he is with was busy. When I called he was not alone as he was speaking very quietly, and kept asking things like...whats wrong. Are the kids okay. Are you sure. Is everything okay? It's the same sh!t he would do when with ow. As if to show...see its all kid related with her and nothing more.

And since he ASKED me to call him and all I got to say was hello before he started his bizarro world antics, it just got to me. So I said "okay your obviously with someone else. You asked me to call you, Im not calling out of the blue. No need to feign fear of the kids health or safety. I don't have time for these games anymore. Good bye XF."

How can I love someone who keeps doing this. I want so badly to detach and let him go.