Now what/ Take 2

[melweb]

Thanks TxHubby (again). Your words of wisdom seem to be spot on.


I have realized what this "feeling" is. Insecurity. Laced with a bit a neediness, wrapped in sheet of jealousy. None of which I have ever been before. Last night he was going to come lay in bed with me and watch tv. He left to go get something..15 mins later he was not back. I got up to see what he was doing and he was laying in his own bed on his phone. I just walked back out. Another 15 mins later... I go look... still on his phone. When he finally comes in, he says nothing--no apology, no "that was just so and so." Just nothing.

We really are in a really good place right now, and I am thrilled by it. I seriously thought it was go to take longer than 8 weeks, if it happened at all. We are truly focusing on the positives and really wooing one another again. We know went wrong wrong and how to fix it.

I get it...its just noise. These new found friends of his are banging so loud tho. Especially the two new women, that he just met 2 months ago; 2 days before the BD; that he kept secret so "I wouldn't get the wrong idea"; that he has traveled twice to see, 3 hours away, but swears they are just friends and says they helped him through this troubled time and had the nerve to say they saved his M (pretty sure that was me); and one of whom he says is also having M trouble. ----This is what I am trying not to dwell on....ugh!!!

And if I am not careful I could pick at til the scab comes off, and it starts to bleed again