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Mowgli I somehow missed your big post.I hear you and it makes ense. I am nit afraid to have that chat and I know I can do it in a calm loving way with no pressure.BBefore Christmas I had a big urge to talk to her. Now less. I am sure it will come back.

Maybe it will shake her fog to hear I won't go on indefinitely like this.Maybe it could help. It has been almost a hear since we had any R talk. From everything I have read here and elsewhere talking is not advised. I just don't know anymore.

But what I do know is that I am getting stronger and improving every week. In my eyes at least. Roiste 2.0 is coming. I can put up with unmet needs while working on me. Maybe W will realise I am moving forward fast and think about the situation.RRegardless when I am fully happy with me, I will decide my timeframe for us.

I have one or two big non M issues to get through shortly so I was not eager to voluntarily add M crap into the mix at the same time. Before Christmas I was overwhelmed by thinking I needed to stir the M pot and deal with this stuff at the same time. It was so powerful to realise I can do whatever I want and wait if it suited me. Not only that but I am now at the brink of a big work issue and although it is as big as I thought I am serene that I will handle it. I guess I am trying to say I am no longer being dragged down by whatever comes at me. It stresses me but less than before but now I know things will be better.

I would really like others to comment on your reply though.