I know that I have my beautiful babies and God and all of my new friends here on the BB that have both given me a little of my sanity back and stopped me from going to jail.
And before his crazy started we did decide together about having more children (and we did) and buying a house by the time they started school and where we would go on our family vacation this year and next year and more. We were a team. Or at least I thought we were, but I also thought he loved me so that goes to show just how much I "know".
Yes. He never married me. That makes me feel like a loser. This is very hard to hear. But its true. He never married me.
Maybe if I remind myself of that I can finally let him go in my heart.
