Good news Gmum, we all already think you are drop dead gorgeous. We see the inside.
OMG mut, you just hit the nail on the head:
"I am trying so hard to to do the right thing"
The right thing is to choose to be happy. You cant just try harder and save your M. You are in serious need of LESS trying. You are still thinking if you do this right and that right that your W will finally see. You cant try and have her see. You cant do anything.
Give yourself permission to just be. You are perfectly fine. You allowed to make as many mistakes as you want. Dont try to be perfect, no one is. Try to be happy. Because happy people are d@mn near perfect people
Me: 42 H: 45 M: 18 yrs T: 20 yrs D: 17 D: 15 S: 12 I kicked him out 8/21/15 I will DB until March 21st 2017, that is it!