Ancaire - I want to jump through the screen and give you a big hug.
I am so sorry that you find yourself here, but welcome. You are going through such a painful time and your emotions are running high and are all over the place, its easy to find yourself doing/saying things that are out of character for you. Many of us look back on the early days and cringe at what we did, so please don't feel alone in this, we all understand.
job, cadet and Sotto have given you great advice so far.
Looking after yourself in NO1 priority, you are no good to anyone if you get sick, so if you are worried about depression then go see your dr for help, eat well, sleep plenty and try get some exercise, even a walk in the fresh air is good for the soul right now.
Secondly is finances - this is an area that you should protect yourself in as much as possible. Mlc'er tend to get into debt, they spend without regard, so take advice about how to make sure your safe - don't fall for any verbal promises that he will look after you.
I know you want your h to feel the pain he is causing you but by being confrontational all that will happen is you will push your h further away. Right now his ONLY goal is to get out of your r, I know it sounds counterproductive but you need to let him go so he can work out what is going on inside his head, which believe me when I say he has no idea, he is confused, lost and seeking something but does not know what it is yet. No amount of you pointing it out will have any affect on him, he needs to do this on his own. And this is the hard bit; accepting that there is absolutely nothing you can do for him. But there is lots you can do for YOU, you can focus on yourself, allow yourself to grieve and then begin to heal, making yourself a stronger, happier and healthier woman.
Read others' threads, they may help you see similariteis with what you are feeling and going through. Post on them to draw others to your thread. You don't have to be full of advice if you dont have anything to say, you can just offer your support, as for all of us support is what gets us through this, just knowing there are people out there who care makes so much difference.
