Back to square one, not sure I can do this again!

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Went to IC today and, as usual, felt worse when I left than when I got there. I am an intelligent person that happens to be a great problem solver. I think that's why I can't get this off my mind...I want to FIX it. Solve the problem and move on. That's what I do. I can't make sense out of nonsense though. That's why I go to an IC, so he can help me make sense of this ridiculousness. Unfortunately, today he listened to me talk about what had happened since last week when H and I were there TOGETHER and H was claiming that he wanted to reconcile, when I was done he basically told me that it was time to stop trying to save the marriage and save myself instead. Told me that without intensive work on H part(which he shows no interest in doing), he would never be good husband material. Every single person that knows me and H, tells me to stop trying and move on. There isn't one single person (that is not on this list) that thinks I should be saving my marriage. Talk about depressing! It's hard to fight with no one in your corner.