I don't know what is wrong with me....My hatred for H is just pouring from me...onto him. I can't stand to see him, look at him, or be anywhere around him. He came to ask me a question. I did not control myself. All of my hurt and anger came gushing out all over him like vomit.

He asked if I just needed to get it off my chest. I said, well yes I do. And out it came.

He wanted to know if I was still going to work with him on the D. I said, yes. The fact I hate you will not change that.

I'm not sure that qualifies as leaving a door cracked.


Me: 48 H: 50 - Married 21 - 3-S: 29,19,19 2-D: 27,26
BD: 08/2015 - D filed & OW disc: 09/2015

"Surrender to What Is, Let Go of What Was, Have Faith in What Will Be." -S Ricotti