Because I want to be careful not to burn any bridges, as you and others have suggested. Also, let me be clear that I am not 100% decided that I want the M to end. I am ambivalent which means that I have serious doubts of my own now about what I want. That isn't certainty, though.
The way I see it, a door is either open or it's closed. Sure, there are degrees of open - half open, all the way open, cracked, etc. But fundamentally, it's closed or it's open. If it's open, act like it's open; if it's closed act like it's closed.
The way I read your posts, you want the door to be open and closed at the same time. Or you are opening and closing the door back and forth by the day or the week. I think all of that is messing with your head. You are so worried about the "level of door-openness" that you dont have any headspace to figure out what to DO.
The way I see it, you dont worry about HOW open the door is; just THAT it's open. And if it's open, then I think that the advice youve been getting is sound.
