Thank you Mona. Your words of encouragement mean a lot. It's wonderful to have a support group that understands 95% of what's going on. The other 5% being specifics. And you are right on the nose. She has expressed anger at me for changing now, and I thought it was because she was mad it took so long for me to be the way I am now. I never considered that it makes her mad because it also makes this so much harder for her. Which feels good to me right now that it's hard for her too. Not te best attitude to have because it's spiteful and I have to not worry about her emotions. Because like you said. She fired me from that job. It's only been a couple days of detaching for me with W and it's going well mostly because I have done it before with previous relationships, those were me going dark tho. I find myself asking myself now if she were to come back what makes me want to take her back? Will things be better? Will she be a different person? Will she just do this again?
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
