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[Mona52]

Ended the day great yesterday. I got everything done, plus I steamed cleaned the living room. And I hung my mother's door...

I tried to tell my mother, calling my H for her home repairs will never work, but she does not listen. The day she had him and my sis over, she had him remove her bedroom door and glue it because it had cracked.

I installed the door last night, now it will not close. There is goobs of hard glue around the frame and they prevent the door from shutting. I will fix it today and maybe she will listen.

My D17 told me my H asked if she was busy on Saturday. Wow! She is busy so he is not seeing her, but hey, he asked, right? He did not ask the other 2 kids, but baby steps are baby steps.

D17 was talking to me yesterday about how she can sleep over and bring the xbox to play with him and what snacks she could take.

D15 wants nothing at all to do with him. She gets furious every time he is near, which is never. So I had a talk with her last night. It was perfect timing. She is a good girl with a huge heart. She would rather die than hurt my feelings. We had to go do work packing up our old house yesterday, which is dusty and messy work. She still had her school uniform on. I made her go change and she got really mad at me. She threw a mini teen tantrum. She never gets mad, so I just let it go.

Later, I was trying to explain that we need to be supportive and understanding towards daddy because he is going through issues right now. I told her that one day he will see what he is doing and on that day he will need love and support. I told her that daddy is human and everyone is allowed to go crazy if they need to. I reminded her that just today she got really mad at me when she was not right. It was that sentence that turned on the light bulb for her.

I think she needed someone to give her permission to forgive her father. I think she felt like she was betraying me if she loved him because of what he has done to me. No one else could have given her that permission, except for me and herself. So yesterday was a great day all around.

Oh, and I slept like a baby. I was so tired when I climbed into bed and just top be sure I drank a beer and it worked like a charm. No men climbed in my head to keep me awake. Actually, I got a new rubik's cube for christmas. There are no colors on it, just shapes. It is called a mirror cube. My brain was full of mirror cube thoughts, lol. Yes, I am pathetic.