Jpeg, I know your heart. I know you don't want this. I know you never wanted this.
Nonetheless, it is happening. It's been happening for a while now. Your H is currently as lost as mine. What are we going to do?
We're going to face the fact that nothing we do will change the course our H's are currently determined to be on. We're going to feel that heartache, and then move past it. We're going to be the best mothers to our children that we can possibly be. We're going to realize that if our H's had their way, we'd be in a real struggle financially, so we're going to look after our own best interests legally.
What else is there right now? Struggling with acceptance just keeps you in one spot - hurting. You don't want to feel this way forever, do you? Cut him loose. Leave him to his folly. I'm not saying help him with his D! Just work on the realization that absolutely nothing you do will change his mind. He thinks he has to do what he's doing.
This is heartbreaking, awful, painful, and lonely. I love my H. You love your H. We'll both miss them, dreadfully. But, let's be the best we can be in the meantime. We owe it both to ourselves and our kids.
I know you believe in God and prayer. You have me, and many others here to help hold you up when you need. You have your children. Jpeg, you're in so much better shape than you realize. Don't get stuck thinking about what you don't have. Focus on what you do, and move forward from there. It will help you begin to heal that broken heart.
