GB - I have been no contact It has been VERY hard. I want to explain - but I know he won't hear it- he will twist it - no matter what I say. Thank you for your words. I can see that it is OW is his ear telling him what he should do and demanding that he move the D process along faster. (he has still never mention D to me ) It is beyond frustrating that he is actually making others feel sorry for him because I "took the kids away" at Christmas - NONE of them wanted to see him. He will never tell that part of the story though