Here I am still

[trumpet]

You made a decision - that is awesome!

Really, the first step is the hardest.

I remember sending in the email to the christian counseling center, telling them I need help. It was probably one of the hardest emails I have ever written.

I am now *counts the days on the calendar* 68 days porn free. No masturbation, either. To me, I have learned to cope with life, and with my marriage blowing up, without the need for a crutch, besides my usual SSRI (lexapro). Small dose, and keeps me from having anxiety in real life, and actually helps the urges. Maybe someday I'll be able to get off of it - for now, I'm happy to be on it.

Your husband can do it... he has to want to do it.
I was told to stop dozens of times. It took my wife starting up an affair to scare me to stop. I'm living with the after-effects, but I am thankful that the addiction is done with.

You can do this, Kyrie. get a plan with the coach, and take action.