Well it has been an interesting day! Met W to try to sort out accounts but stopped by various technical problems. She was concerned that S wouldn't go to see her parents for the holidays. He won't go with her but could I try? We then spoke about other things and because I was so organized she asked was I getting outside advice? I said no which is true and asked her to look me in the eyes. She said she believed me and it would shake her foundations if she thought I was lying which only goes to show how much she still trusts me. Again she asked how I was and I replied moving on, she hugged me and gave me a kiss on the cheek. We talked some more before finally I asked how she was. She smiled, shrugged her shoulders all moist eyed and said ok. She asked would I invite her to the house on Friday for lunch before taking S to dentist, I said no. Before she left she reached in to kiss me on the lips but I turned my cheek. She asked why I was avoiding her. I said things had changed, she said she was just being affectionate. I decided after our meeting to visit her parents for a quick visit. We've spent the evening after a four hour car drive and we'll leave after lunch tomorrow. They were delighted to see us as they were by themselves. We've avoided talking about their daughter so far. Texted W to say we were going and that I will always try to do the right thing. She texted I know with a kiss. Later I sent her a photo of her S with her mother. Again thank you and a kiss. Weird day. I love her still but I can't give in all the time. Who knows if her relationship will last but I have to move forward alone no matter how much I love her and wish things were different.
