dday, thanks for the support, it feels good to know that although my actions weren't perfect I am not bad parent.
Caliguy, thank you for stopping by. I try to read your posts where ever I find them. I find truth and wisdom in your words.
"you need to build up your self confidence and self esteem at this level, follow me?"
I agree 100%. I have struggled with this for very long time but it really got bad after my wifes 2008 EA/PA. I will focus on building both of these to a healthy level.
"detach a bit, be your own man .... might be a good time to 180 and see if something else works or sparks movement, but do so detached and look at it like a science project, not as a pursuing LBS."
I like that approach. Ancaire had me do an attitude experiment yesterday and it worked. The whole lab experiment thing seems easy to manage does not need to much forethought.
Caliguy please drop by and tell when I need a tuneup. If I remember correctly your a car guy too. dday is a car guy also and is about to start a nice project but that's his story.