You're allowed to have a cry about this for sure. But timeframe this give yourself 30-40 mins of feeling as bad as your want.
Then your done with it for the day. Tomorrow you can cry about it if you want but for today you get 30-40 mins. Then it is back to you.
You can choose to go down this rabbit hole and stay there or you can choose to stay here in DBland and work through this.
I think I said in another post recently that H nor anyone else for that matter gets to have control of how you feel, your level of happiness or sadness.
H knows exactly which buttons to push to get the crazy to come out. His intent was purposeful. Ancaire, Judy, does he get to control the crazy or do you? Take the remote control out of his hand, and place it firmly in your own. If you are going to do crazy, you choose the when the where!
Your PMA is there to pick up anytime you choose.
As for H relatives, WHO THE F CARES, what they think! Its not your business to know what other people think of you. It's only your business to know what you think of you.
You also know whatever H has said has been his version of the truth.
Hang in there friend. I feel a lovely bath of bubbles and a good soak and reading a good trashy novel while there is in order. That's one of my go to's when I need to self soothe.
